Why I Choose to Use a Wheelchair

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by Matt Lafleur |

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My alarm goes off at 6 a.m. I open my eyes to my service dog, Zeego, who still has his eyes closed. He is definitely not ready to get up yet, but I am. With a hand on my SuperPole for balance, I sit up with my legs hanging off the side of the bed.

“You’ve got this,” I tell myself every morning, as I make the transfer from my bed to my wheelchair. This maneuver is always risky. I could easily end up on the floor, having to call someone for help.

Friedreich’s ataxia is not for the faint of heart.

Fortunately, I complete the transfer most of the time. After a heavy slam onto the wheelchair cushion, and leaning into the chair’s sturdy back, I can breathe more easily. That transfer is a huge source of tension for me. 

Most days, I conquer it. #LittleVictory


While previously I had refused to use a wheelchair, now my day seems to begin after I am sitting securely in one.

As I’ve written before, my relationship with my wheelchair is complicated.

Because the effects of Friedreich’s ataxia on me are subtle over time — more like a rising tide than a flash flood — my capabilities have quietly shifted. I didn’t suddenly realize that a wheelchair was necessary. My headstrong teenage self was determined to avoid using a walking aid. I wanted to rely on myself rather than a cane, walker, or wheelchair.

In theory, there’s nothing wrong with that mindset. It’s almost noble. But it’s incomplete. I am learning that my life does not only affect me. I don’t live in a vacuum.

Even if refusing a walking aid to rely more on myself is a chivalrous thought, it isn’t accurate. 

Instead of depending on a walking aid, I depended on those around me to accommodate me and to help me navigate the world. I thought that relying on them was being more independent than relying on a walking aid.

But rather than being self-reliant, I was being selfish. I thought that refusing a wheelchair made a bold and courageous statement about my own character. Instead, I was focused on myself rather than those around me.

I didn’t consider how it felt for my family and friends to see me constantly struggling to keep up, or how they might become stressed about helping me get by. I just assumed that everyone around me would help me.

I am lucky that friends and family always have helped me maneuver life. And they would continue to serve as my wheelchair today if I asked.

I didn’t want to use a walking aid because I believed I’d lose autonomy. I only accepted using one when I thought of other people’s perspectives. 

But after using a wheelchair for a while, I realized it enhances my autonomy rather than limiting it. I wish I could have always understood that a wheelchair isn’t a sign of disability, but a tool to strengthen my independence.

To any FAer considering using any type of medical device, never let it affect your self-worth. Sometimes self-reliance looks like choosing to use a wheelchair.


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Barbie Miller avatar

Barbie Miller

Love the perspective. I have accepted using a wheelchair for long distance, at one point I had to use a chair most of the time including short distance. I did not like it at all. I'm happy to say that I just use it for long distance now. It gives me anxiety knowing that eventually I will likely require a chair 24/7. But hopefully I would learn to accept the chair 24/7. I didn't like not being able to walk short distances because unfortunately quite a bit of public places aren't accessible, it just took longer to do things, tight spaces, I'm also a germaphobe so I don't like people touching my chair. I also experience a difference in how people treat me when I use a walker vs the wheelchair. Anyway, cheers to your positive outlook!

Matt Lafleur avatar

Matt Lafleur

I definitely understand because I didn’t think positively about using a wheelchair for most of my life. But it’s funny how your opinion evolves when it has to. Thanks for reading as always.


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