Posts by: Matt Lafleur

Matt Lafleur

Matt Lafleur was diagnosed with Friedreich's ataxia at age 11. He has a bachelor's degree in English and a master's in mental health counseling.

November 13, 2019November 13, 2019

I’m Not Finished with Life Yet

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When I was 16, I searched the internet for Friedreich’s ataxia (FA) for the first time. I couldn’t ignore its effects any longer, and I was ready to learn ... Read more

November 6, 2019November 4, 2019

A Perfect Picture: FA Symposium 2019

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Is this even worth it? The noisy confusion was almost comical. Luckily, I was next to some friends in a corner of the hotel lobby.  Taking a group picture ... Read more

October 30, 2019October 25, 2019

My Little Victories Are Enough for Me

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Out of curiosity, I ran an online search of “Kyle Bryant,” one of my best friends. I call him the poster boy for Friedreich’s ataxia (FA), and the search ... Read more

October 23, 2019October 21, 2019

Phantoms and Flowers: Hades, Persephone, and Hope

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A friend and I recently had an honest discussion, broaching topics like depression and the fear of death. I felt relieved afterward. My friend, however, presumed I was in despair, as ... Read more

October 16, 2019October 14, 2019

The View from My Standing Frame

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As I type this column, I’m standing about 5 feet, 11 inches tall. Honestly, that’s a couple inches taller than my natural height. The platform for my feet on ... Read more

October 9, 2019October 4, 2019

The Best Man Gets His Groove On

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Being the best man at a wedding had its challenges. I am not comfortable being the center of attention, so it was not relaxing to give a speech at ... Read more

October 2, 2019October 23, 2019

The Zeego Tales: Takeoffs Are Scary!

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“The Zeego Tales” track the wonders of my new life with my service dog, Zeego. The sound of rushing wind and the rumbling of turbines intensified as I felt ... Read more

September 25, 2019September 25, 2019

Honoring the Legacy of Serena Lawrence

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Serena Lawrence hired me as a columnist for BioNews Services. I badgered my friend Frankie, who writes the column “Fighting FA,” into recommending me. She gave my name to ... Read more

September 18, 2019September 19, 2019

Consistency Is Key with FA — Just Ask My Crummy Friend

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My phone alerted me to a text message. “Would you be devastated if we canceled this week?” It was my friend Will, canceling our weekly appointment yet again. I ... Read more

September 11, 2019September 18, 2019

Longing for the Sky

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“But the bird fly! I want jump off the roof!” My 3-year-old mind believed this totally. I stamped my tiny shoe. I had made up my mind and I ... Read more

September 4, 2019September 18, 2019

Checking Up on My Heart’s Health

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“The heart really is an amazing machine,” the technician mused in the dim examination room.  I was shirtless on the sterile white bed with seven wires attached to my ... Read more

August 28, 2019September 11, 2019

Physical Therapy: A Lesson in Little Victories and FA

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“I think you got this,” Dr. Landreneau told me.  I didn’t know how to respond, and I was too worn out to, anyway. I graciously sipped through the straw ... Read more

August 21, 2019September 25, 2019

Finding a New Endeavor: Writing a Children’s Book About Rare Diagnoses

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The day I got my big idea, I received a package in the mail. Other than that, it was an average, unremarkable Tuesday.  Speaking of unremarkable, the package itself ... Read more

August 14, 2019September 4, 2019

‘The Lion King’ and the Circle of Life with FA

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My mom took me and my 10-year-old nephew Andrew with her to the movie, probably because we were the only members of our family who wanted to see the ... Read more

August 7, 2019September 4, 2019

The Zeego Tales: Naming the Hurricane

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“The Zeego Tales” track the wonders of my new life with my service dog, Zeego. “Hurricane Barry” sounded innocent enough — more like a goofy uncle than a scary ... Read more

July 31, 2019August 28, 2019

FA Allows Me to See Underwater and Face Its Uncomfortable Elements

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“I’d give all of my degrees to write as powerfully as Melville,” Dr. Cicardo mused. She had read a passage from “Moby-Dick; or, The Whale“ aloud to her small ... Read more

July 24, 2019September 4, 2019

Living By the Book: I Can Pursue the Joy of Reading in a Wheelchair

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My unease kept growing on the first day of this evening class during my third semester of college. The professor hadn’t shown up yet, so we were a small ... Read more

July 17, 2019August 26, 2019

A Postcard from the Island of Misfit Toys

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Finding a job when you are disabled is challenging. The search leads to frustration, and in my case, shame. I couldn’t find a position, even with decent grades from ... Read more

July 10, 2019August 22, 2019

Battling Like Sisyphus

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An online friend recently commented that living with FA is a “Sisyphean dream.” I haven’t been able to stop thinking about that. At first glance, the idea seems futile, ... Read more

July 3, 2019August 8, 2019

The Zeego Tales: From Florida to Louisiana

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“The Zeego Tales” track the wonders of my new life with my service dog, Zeego. Zeego mumbles in his sleep. As I type this, he is on the floor ... Read more

June 26, 2019August 5, 2019

Breaking the System of FA

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The first time I broke the system, I was thrilled. It was a high I’d never experienced before — I felt that I had been cunning and sneaky. I ... Read more

June 19, 2019August 7, 2019

Living a Nomad’s Life

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My nomadic lifestyle was always something I loved about myself. For some reason, I memorized a senior quote when I was flipping through my high school yearbook. I don’t ... Read more

June 12, 2019August 2, 2019

Playing Catch with Dad Despite My FA’s Progression

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Those days were sticky hot. Or, at least, that’s how they are in my memory. I made my way to the backyard; the bright green of the summer grass ... Read more

June 5, 2019August 2, 2019

The Zeego Tales: Graduating Puppy College and Coming Home

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“The Zeego Tales” track the wonders of my new life with my service dog, Zeego. Read the first installment here. My dad pushed me up the ramp and to ... Read more

May 29, 2019May 24, 2019

My Cousin Served as My First Wheelchair

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“Ready?” my cousin asked. “I guess,” I said halfheartedly, ashamed, and eager for this to be over. My cousin easily lifted me onto his back. I remember thinking how ... Read more

May 22, 2019May 20, 2019

The Zeego Tales: Earning the Trust of My Service Dog

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“The Zeego Tales” track the wonders of my new life with my service dog, Zeego. It has never been my style to ask for help. Call me “strong-willed,” if ... Read more

May 15, 2019May 13, 2019

Louisiana FA Community Helps Ease Loneliness

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“Is everyone here?” Dr. Grabczyk asked from the head of the table. The old restaurant buzzed with the lunchtime rush, but the gathered members of the Louisiana FA community ... Read more

May 8, 2019May 6, 2019

Planning for My Unpredictable Future

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“I can’t believe we found this,” I said to my friend Jennifer, holding the manila folder against my lap. “Do you think we should open it?” The sun shone ... Read more

May 1, 2019April 29, 2019

Little Victories Really Matter with FA

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Editor’s note: Please be advised that the topic of suicide is addressed in this column. Resources for help are listed at the end of the column. *** Despite all ... Read more

April 24, 2019June 28, 2019

Despite the Storm, rideATAXIA Dallas Was Worth It

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My eyes shot open in the middle of a pleasant dream. The scene was familiar: There was a pool, perhaps a beach? But the dream vanished shortly after I ... Read more

April 17, 2019June 28, 2019

Finding Friends, Family, and Vulnerability at rideATAXIA Dallas

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On the long drive home from rideATAXIA Dallas, I asked the driver, my buddy Ryan, for his overall takeaway from our weekend trip. “I feel like I understand you ... Read more

April 10, 2019June 21, 2019

Because Saying ‘No, I Won’t’ Just Isn’t My Style

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They couldn’t understand why I wouldn’t try, and my absolute refusal surprised me, too. Downtown Los Angeles in 2005 was unfamiliar to me, in a good way. It was ... Read more

April 3, 2019June 3, 2019

Waiting to Meet My New Service Dog

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I first encountered a service dog accompanying a person with Friedreich’s ataxia (FA) three years ago. I had met my friend and fellow FARA ambassador Andrea and she had ... Read more

March 27, 2019May 15, 2019

Consistency in the French Quarter with FA

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My unharnessed wheelchair swerved unexpectedly. I reached out to grab onto something so that I wouldn’t flip over. Riding in the back of my former wheelchair-accessible van was challenging. ... Read more

March 20, 2019April 5, 2019

Death, My Constant Companion

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Sitting at my computer in my room, I barely noticed that everything had gotten dimmer. It wasn’t until I looked up that I noticed that one of the four ... Read more

March 13, 2019March 29, 2019

Decompressing from Life’s Complexities on a Lazy Sunday

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  I look forward to lazy Sundays. Nothing feels more familiar, more like my childhood, more like home. I brush aside any work or obligations, finding comfort in choosing ... Read more

March 6, 2019March 19, 2019

I’ve Learned to Face My Reality While Hoping for an FA Cure

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I’ve been down this road before and it doesn’t end up anywhere good. Following that thought, I swallowed the pill laid out for me and rushed to the bathroom ... Read more

February 27, 2019March 12, 2019

An FAer’s Reflection on Rare Disease Day

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The theater was packed. It was unseasonably warm for February in Washington, D.C., and my Cajun blood was thankful. The details of that Sunday night in 2018 may have ... Read more

February 20, 2019February 27, 2019

I’m Both an FA Patient and a Cajun During Mardi Gras

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I find it easy to identify myself as a person with Friedreich’s ataxia (FA). In light of the significant effects that FA has on my life, I have no ... Read more

February 13, 2019February 22, 2019

The Anchor on My Wheelchair from My Steadfast FA Friend

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A small wooden trinket hangs on the back of my wheelchair. It’s a navy blue anchor with hand-painted white letters: “Cure” is written down the anchor’s stem and “FA” ... Read more

February 6, 2019February 13, 2019

In the Waiting Room with FA

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Before I had a smartphone to help me pass the time, I was OK. I was easily entertained in waiting rooms, whether I read outdated magazine articles or focused ... Read more

January 30, 2019February 1, 2019

Sometimes FA Makes Me Want to Be Invisible

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Sometimes we prefer not to be seen. I know how that feels. Growing up, I loved being almost invisible, whether I was pretending to be a spy or playing ... Read more

January 23, 2019January 31, 2019

I’m Right Where I’m Supposed to Be

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This isn’t where I’m supposed to be, I thought. My power wheelchair’s mechanic whine echoed through the underbelly of the LSU football stadium, known by Tiger fans as Death ... Read more

January 16, 2019January 23, 2019

Introducing the Friedreich’s Ataxia News Forums

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BioNews Services is launching a new project on Jan. 22: the Friedreich’s Ataxia News Forums. This will be a place for all of those affected with FA — patients, caregivers, ... Read more

January 9, 2019January 24, 2019

‘Bird Box’ Is Worth the Hype, Especially for the Disabled

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Spoiler alert: In this column, I’ll review the popular Netflix movie “Bird Box.” I explore the movie’s ending. If you like suspenseful sci-fi movies, I recommend watching it first, then returning ... Read more

January 2, 2019January 23, 2019

A New Year’s Resolution I Can Keep

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“What’s your resolution?” This time of year, redefinition is almost a buzzword. Resolutions and goals are a hailstorm assault on social media. As the calendars mark another complete orbit ... Read more

December 19, 2018December 17, 2018

A Little Gift from ‘Little Victories’

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Writing this column has really been a joy for me. A significant source of worry with a progressive disorder like Friedreich’s ataxia (FA) is the difficulty of finding a ... Read more

December 12, 2018February 20, 2019

Surviving the In-between Moments

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On any typical day at my middle school, the closer you were to the bench, the higher your social status. It was a cheaply made concrete bench, painted over ... Read more

December 5, 2018January 23, 2019

Introversion as an Excuse

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Sometimes I use my introversion as an excuse. It’s safe and secure; it’s familiar not to expose myself to unfamiliar situations. I find safety and comfort in familiarity. “So what ... Read more

November 28, 2018November 26, 2018

Finding Reasons to Stay Alive

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Drowsily and with great effort, I hoisted the top half of my body upright in the hotel bed. Before I drifted off, I groggily but sincerely asked my friend ... Read more