Coyotes, Roadrunners, and a Cure for My Rare Disease
Sometimes holding on to hope looks a lot like desperation.
I’ve been dealing with the unstoppable progression of my disorder, Friedreich’s ataxia (FA), for most of my life. Since there is no treatment or cure for FA yet, nothing stops it from ravaging me and sapping my abilities little by little. But I won’t give up searching and hoping. Maybe one day, I’ll find what I’m after.
I wonder if that’s naive and desperate.
What does it look like to constantly chase a goal but never quite reach it? I think of Wile E. Coyote, never giving up the chase for the elusive Road Runner. Isn’t everyone familiar with the sketch of the anthropomorphic brown dog tirelessly trying to capture the speedy blue land bird? (Special thanks to Warner Bros. Entertainment for the ubiquitous and surprisingly poignant cartoon.)
None of the coyote’s schemes to capture his prize are too outlandish or extreme. Sometimes he paints the opening of a tunnel on the side of a cliff, which the roadrunner zips through as if the tunnel were real. Other times, he orders elaborate gadgets (often anvils and dynamite) to capture the roadrunner.
But none of his attempts work. The roadrunner always eludes capture. The unflappable coyote will keep trying, and the audience will continue to laugh at his doggish determination.
Even though the coyote is portrayed as the butt of the joke, a comedic Sisyphus with zany sound effects, I see something admirable in the way he doesn’t give up, how he never stops his fruitless attempts to catch the roadrunner. In this two-dimensional cartoon, created to elicit cheap laughs from the audience, I see myself.
*Matt deadpans at the camera and holds up a sign that reads “Gulp!”*
Ever since I was diagnosed with FA, I’ve been on a tireless chase for anything to stop or slow its progression. I’ve tried countless medicines, vitamins, procedures, and therapies. None have prevented me from devolving from an active kid to an adult who is heavily reliant on others for many activities.
Like the cartoon coyote, nothing I order, no clever scheme I devise, ends with reaching my goal.
However, neither my story nor the coyote’s is a tragedy. Every experiment, even if it ends in failure, brings us one step closer to knowing how to catch our prize.
The Friedreich’s Ataxia Research Alliance released a course this year engineered by Salem Oaks, a company that builds educational resources for patient organizations, to educate our community about gene therapy clinical trials.
“It’s been over 20 years, and nothing has worked yet, but this development feels promising. Maybe this time …”
Sometimes holding on to hope looks like a painting of a cave on the side of a cliff. Maybe one day I’ll run through it.
Until then, I’ll keep persevering. I have a roadrunner to catch, after all. And so do you.
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