It was a real hassle getting to my sister’s this year for Thanksgiving. It was particularly hard because nobody, not even my kids, seemed to realize that my abilities are different. And I had to do it on my own. Inside her house were more challenges… I cried dry tears during the dinner at seeing what they all could do and enjoy, and how much I had lost. I then got angry at myself for acting like a victim and started thinking about all the good things in that room : my 18 year old’s daughter’s superhuman strength, my 16 – year old daughter’s kindness, my brother in law’s fantastic abilities as a chef. My sister’s efforts in beautifying her house and dog for us. My nephew’s ability to laugh at the most silly things I show him. And their dog’s preference for me.
I bought a huge sign this year right after halloween, that says “thankful” and put it behind my family photos. I did it so that I would focus on all the good that I do have this holiday season. Because it’s too easy to get depressed right about now as you put so well. I also sent quite a few thank you texts and emails after our dinner.
Thinking about the people and things I am is grateful and thankful for, really helps me survive the holidays.
To all of you, hang in there, be strong, or as they say in French “courage!”
Hugs,
Karina